By Susn Dybvik
Its been a while since I’ve posted anything. Not because my mind doesn’t go a hundred miles an hour all the damn time, but because I haven’t felt the need to share it. Since my birthday, there has been a lot of things going on. Transitioning. Changing. Starting a new chapter in my life. And sometimes it is hard to do the right thing for yourself. But I believe there is a valuable lesson to learn in everything you do, every choice you make and every step you take. I´m just out here trying to do the best I can, like everyone else. The further I go, the clearer the vision gets, and the more “selfish” I become. I have always been a people pleaser, putting other people’s needs above my own. But it is changing. To get what I want out of life, I need to step out of that comfort zone and do my thing. I hate blending in, because I´ve never been able to. Either it’s the way I dress or the way I perceive life, I´ve always felt a little different. Not better, just different. But stepping out, means facing judgments. Facing my own fears, and others disbelieves. It has taken a lot of self analysing and I am at a state where it’s a good feeling not to be afraid to try anymore.
I´ve come to realise that people will perceive you in the most comfortable way for themselves. They put you in a box, and when you step out of the lines doing things for your own good, they become uncomfortable. People make these labels and boxes because they are uncomfortable with their own identity. And they try to bring you back down to their own level of insecurities. But that is not yours or mine burden to bear. Negativity will come from those who don’t believe in your vision and can’t even imagine believing in their own vision. Don’t let their blockings block you. It all comes down to self-worth and self-respect. And as I am learning every day, this is the hardest thing to manage. It goes up and down, but steadily becomes stronger by the day. The hardest part is that you sometimes have to cut ties with people you want in your life, or you have to choose which way to go next. What you need to remember is that everyone you meet is a guest in your life. If they don’t treat you right or fulfill all your needs, you don’t have to keep them around. It’s a cliché thing to say but the people who wants to be with you or apart of your journey will give themselves to you freely. They will be there for you when you need them, even if you don’t talk for months or even years. They will give you advice, and pick you back up when you fall. They will tell you the truth and give you a smack over your head if you need that too.
Life is too short to waste your soul and beauty on someone who doesn’t appreciate it enough. And darling, you deserve the best!